Ruby City Mailbox/Inbox

[oathshackledbird]

You have found the Mailbox/Inbox of Diarmuid Ua Duibhne, owner and teacher of the training school, Spiral. If you have business with him or the school, please feel free to leave a message and he will get back to you as soon as possible. Considering his abilities, that might be quicker than you think...

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I'm sorry for taking forever ;w;

[hitthebeat]

[ Her fingers shake despite the warmth - the warmth of a soft blanket, of a strong arm around her. Her life truly hasn't been so pampered that she should need to lean against any man for support but this is different; it's not a fight, it's a matter much deeper and personal and he can relate to some extent. And she feels safe, safer like this than if she were alone right now, allowed to act on impulse yet again. ]

[ She feels her shoulders hunch, curling further into her small metaphorical coccoon when he speaks. Diarmuid radiates warmth, and he speaks wise words. And it's strange - almost nostalgic to simply be the one to listen to unexpected advice. ]

You're too kind for your own good. [ She isn't chastising him - not at all. Her tone of voice sounds almost breathless for an instant but she allows herself a soft sigh, leaning further against him despite herself. ] But I cannot - will not - argue these points with you because - I- I know. I know it to be true despite how I wish it wasn't.

[ She pauses for just a moment, hitching in a deep breath. ]

I was never one to take the easy route but I also never expected to be in this situation. I know how I acted must seem wrong to some - to Caesar especially - and I... I don't know. But I do know that I want to understand him too. When he's ready. [ If he ever is. But would he truly hate her forever? ] And I know all of this will take time and the wounds are all too fresh. I just wish... Truly, I just wish things would not be so hurtful for everyone involved.

It's okay! *hugs*

[oathshackledbird]

[That is what he wants right now. For her to feel safe and warm. For her to be able to lean, but at the same time know that she's leaning not because she is weak and needs someone else to hold her up, but because he knows she is strong enough to let down the walls and deal with the things that she needs to deal with.]

Interestingly enough, you are not the first person to tell me that.

[Diarmuid laughs softly before becoming more serious again.]

There are so many hard truths we wish were not true. It's why taking advice is never easy. Were we willing to accept what we know is true but do not like easily, I would not have to say what I am saying. If it helps any, I am terrible at taking advice myself no matter how easy it is for me to speak it.

[There is a moment of silence as Diarmuid shifts the arm he has around his shoulders so he can gently run his fingers through her hair.]

I too wish there could be less pain involved. Your family has already been through so much, but pain is strange sometimes. As much as it hurts, in the end, those hurt usually come out of it stronger. I know I don't know Caesar that well, but he doesn't seem to be the type to leave things undone. When he is ready, I have a feeling he will come to you to find out more. You have been through a lot together and no matter how angry one gets, it is not easy just to walk away from that. Maybe he will yell when he comes to talk to you. Maybe he will curse, and maybe it will hurt more, but that time will give you your chance to find understanding. If we are lucky, he will find that understanding for himself as well.