You instinctively called for him when you needed help, it was long enough.

[For a moment, Diarmuid sets aside the food he's been munching on and focuses his attention fully on Kakyoin. He sounds a little hesitant when he speaks--like he is worried he is stepping out of line--but it's something he really wants to say.]

This might be a little off topic, but I've noticed that you have a habit of saying or at least implying that as long as it is you something is happening to, it's okay. That's not always true. Just because it might hurt someone else more, doesn't mean the pain or emptiness you feel is any less important.