Ruby City Mailbox/Inbox

[oathshackledbird]

You have found the Mailbox/Inbox of Diarmuid Ua Duibhne, owner and teacher of the training school, Spiral. If you have business with him or the school, please feel free to leave a message and he will get back to you as soon as possible. Considering his abilities, that might be quicker than you think...

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[charilandry_npc]

What is the point of life?

[It's an echo, but also a question all on its own. Her voice grows distant and detached for a moment, then she suddenly smiles.]

Do you think we deserve to be happy?

[oathshackledbird]

I'm not sure I can tell you that. In order for your point to living to truly be yours, you need to find that answer yourself. For me, I have found helping and protecting others is what makes me happy. Their happiness is my own, however, that is not something I can force on others. I can try to make them understand why I feel that way, but that is all I can do.

[Diarmuid is silent for a few seconds before he answers her second question. It's not because he needs to think on the answer, more so because he is very aware of how much that question reminds him of the one Tim asked about everything needing to have a point.]

Yes, you do, but I realize your definition of happiness is different than mine. I just can't imagine living life without emotions no matter how painful they may be at times.

[charilandry_npc]

I can. It's how it was supposed to be, but it didn't.. stick.

[She frowns, head drawn into an oddly angled tilt as her eyes slide away from Diarmuid's. Her mind has gone somewhere distant, though only for a moment before her expression screws up and she shakes her head quickly.]

They didn't know what they were doing. Not really. It was their last chance, but when they let us out, everything went wrong. [Chari purses her lips and rubs one of her eyes with her knuckles.] They thought we'd be obedient, but we weren't. They'd hurt us enough.

[oathshackledbird]

Only egoists and the truly desperate allow themselves to think that people they have hurt will ever listen to them.

[This statement applies on the surface to what Chari has just told him. How many times has Diarmuid seen the beaten, battered, and suffering turn into the fiercest fighters he has ever known? He understands why they turned on those who made them how they are. However, the statement is also a warning. How long do they think they can continue to do what they are doing to the residents in the city before said residents find a way to do exactly what they did to their creators?

And which are they? The egoists or the truly desperate?]

So not only are you in pain, but you did once know the peace that lack of pain brings. That is why you can so easily imagine it.

[No wonder not having it makes the pain even worse.]

[charilandry_npc]

They thought we were broken, and we were, but not in the way they wanted us to be. We were stronger than them.

[Chari shrugs, rubs her arm, and her attention drifts off to some point in the middle distance a few feet away from her companion. If she grasps the 'warning', it doesn't faze her. Threats rarely faze any of them.]

It isn't the kind of pain that you feel. It's.. hm. [Her fingers fidget together.] A dissonance.

[oathshackledbird]

A dissonance.

[Immediately, Diarmuid's thoughts drift to the use of that word in music. Notes not in tune with each other cause it and the difference can becomes very painful to the ear if allowed to build. It might not be exactly what she means, but it does help paint a much clearer picture in his head of how it feels to be them.

Is that why he and Temper never really got along? They resonate on different frequencies and trying to interact just causes too much dissonance?]

I have a great love of music, so I am thinking of it in musical terms, but I think I understand. As much as a person who isn't one of you can anyway.

[charilandry_npc]

[His thinking isn't too far wrong. When he speaks it, Chari tilts her head in consideration and then slowly nods, chewing slightly on her lower lip.]

When you play two chords that don't harmonise - is that what you're thinking of? It's unpleasant, and you know why, but you.. try to find the sense in it. There has to be beauty in it, even if it sounds ugly.

[Her lips purse, and she shakes her head.]

What do you think?

[oathshackledbird]

[What does he think? That is a good question. When two music notes are played that don't harmonize, most people's reaction is to fix it, not try to find beauty in it. But, that doesn't mean there isn't any beauty there to be found. It's just that no one has taken the time to look.]

I don't see why beauty couldn't be found there. It would probably take people changing their views and their ways of thinking, but just because it is different, doesn't mean it can't also be beautiful. Some people feel that things that are different are the most beautiful of all because of that difference.

[It just takes shifting one's point of view.]